Simply-Miie '

Valentine Day..

2012-02-14T13:55:00.001+08:00

A couple is just two linear lines.

They intercept each other at one point.

But will never intercept each other again once they parted.

Start of 2012..

2012-01-08T01:34:00.005+08:00

It had been billion years since I last blogged.

Since polytechnic journey started, I began losing the momentum and time to blog about my life.

Indeed many things happened, but I had forgotten most of it.

Right now, I am just living a life as a freaking no-life programmer.

Have a killer project module. And so unlucky, it's a programming project.

- Object Oriented Programming Project (OOPJ)

Everyday wake up, open my eyes, on laptop, coding. All the way till midnight.

Endless work.

This is how it look like.

Full of programming codes. Chunks after chunks of codes.

I have to force myself to understand mostly everything, in order to implement it.

Most of them are hard-coded, not generated from the programs.

No help from teacher. Seeking help from teacher would end up getting scolded.

So, Google is my best friend (:

& this project module last for the whole semester. This is how major this module is.

If this code can't work, it is equal to failing the whole module and have to retake it next year.

But there is one benefit from learning programming.

That is -- train your patience.

Apart from this module, typically, poly life is flooded with projects, quizzes, test.

Every module, one project.

I had 6 core modules and 2 GSMs.

So I had to juggle 8 projects concurrently.

Resolution for the new year ?

Maybe hope that my OOPJ codes can work and also can get into director list again. Hopefully.

School works aside, personal life.

Similarly, many things happened. But due to my STM, I also forgotten most of it, unless being reminded. (:

The most recent part:

Clebrated Christmas with BF.

Took a stroll at MBS.

Catch the Christmas lighting at Orchard and then dinner at Ding Tai Fung again. (:

What I got for Christmas from Jack

-- a huge Hello Kitty plush toy and a hand-made Hello Kitty Christmas card. :D

But I owed him a Christmas present but later I gave him a belated present.

Bought him a Burberry Belt for his Christmas present.

It shall be his present for the whole 2012! :P

Shall end the post here.

2011-11-06T14:49:00.001+08:00

I wonder how will it be liked in the future...

想像總是比現實美好......

Raining days..

2011-10-20T17:50:00.003+08:00

Semester 2 had started.
Finally get back to school.
Quite missed schooling the holidays.
Was rotting at home mugging for O levels English and didn't went to look for part-time work.
Hais, should have work harder last year.
If not I have extra 1K to spend, instead of staying at home, not earning any income. ):
Bored to the max while rotting at home.

Felt extremely tired everyday after school ends.
Yet, I have difficulties sleeping every night.
Damn pathetic.

Timetable for semester two shit like hell; but will eventually get use to it.
Especially for Tuesday which ends at 7.30pm.
Never once in my life I heard that lecture starts at that timing. So weird.
But, during this lecture, it was fully packed.
I think maybe there are year 2 students joining because Bro's gf same lecture as me!

What I loathe about semester two is that, many of my module lecturers or tutors are all LKK.
They talked like they are chanting-monotonous, babbling away.
I had to force my eyelids opened for their lessons. -.-

Bought a customised name stickers online! HAHAH!
Hello kitty design-my favourite!
At first was pretty upset because after waiting for 2 working days, and checking my mails box at every hour, the package didn't arrive.
I thought I got cheated -.-
But at the 3rd day, the package was there! HAHAHA!
So happy about it.
& I loved the stickers!!!!
:D I sound childish! (:

Super hungry!
Craving for Ajisen's tomyam ramen!!! (:

I made this jelly during the holidays!!

School Holiday.

2011-09-22T16:14:00.003+08:00

Currently having my 2 months school holiday.
Wanted to find a part time job, but at the end rotting at home.
Just because I have to retake O levels in another month, I have to stay home and mug hard for it. T.T
Stayed home everyday to study, bored to the MAX.

Came home after a 3D2N class chalet @ coastal sands pasir ris with 15 classmates.
But I only overnight for the first night and went back home on the second day.
BBQ and alcohol the first night and everybody went back to room around 4am.
I didn't even sleep at all.
5 people squeeze in a 2 single bed and just nice I slept in the middle, which is the worst place on the bed.
It was where the line of the two bed joined together. Damn uncomfortable.
It was so packed that I can't turned my body. I had to sleep side way.
My back was going to break into two.
I can't stand it anymore and I went to the first floor where the living room was at.
Sat there and chatted on phone with Jack until the sun rose.

I only went back to sleep in the chalet room at 10am when everybody was awake and was playing majong at the living room.
At the time, I was alone in the room and had the whole bed to myself.
SHIOCK! Furthermore, it was raining at that time. (:

When the rain stopped, everybody got ready and headed out to Ehub.
And I went back to Yishun.

Home sweet home.
Home is the best! hahaha(:

2011-08-16T02:37:00.002+08:00

Sometimes.. I really have a hard time coping..
I feel that the past feeling that I had is coming back.
But I knew that it will be a rash decision again...
So... going to hold on to it until I no longer have the abilities to continue....

Perhaps, this will happen soon..
or maybe this will happen in future or.. will never happen at all.
If whatever happens, I shall live on with no regrets.. (:

August..

2011-08-05T21:29:00.002+08:00

Craving for this now...

Tu Tu Kueh!!!

Seriously craving for it. (:
I ate it everyday when there was pasar malam that was nearby my block.
Now, the pasar malam was gone.
And there goes by tu tu kueh. ):
Missing it right now. (:
Nvm, shall go the Wisma to try out the famous tu tu kueh shop there.
Got durian flavor some more! (:

In a semi-holiday period now!!
No school! Only need go back to school for one or two days! (:
And only for an hour lesson! (:
But there are POA and Cmaths examinations coming up in two weeks time.
Should be fun! (:

5 more days to 1 year anniversary! <3

In Conclusion...

2011-07-17T00:13:00.001+08:00

It's had been long since I last posted.
So many things happened during this period.

Brother went to army; I can enjoy the peace at home.
But he came back after his two-weeks confinement.
He had became more tan and muscular.

Finally, with the arrival of the semester break! (:
2 weeks only; but it's better than none.
Jack came to my house every morning, had breakfast with me and send me to ah ma house.
And on one occasion, we went to shop around SSC. (:

Rushed my projects and assignment beforehand, revise, study.
Meet up w friends to attend Charlotte's chalet at Changi.
Didn't expected it to be so simple and "ULU".
Without much entertainment facilities nor any bicycles rental shop.
Jack fetched me at Tampines and we had dinner before heading back to Yishun.

School had started about three weeks..

At this point of time, I was flooded with projects and tests.
Plus, having an English tuition now; adds on to my burden.
Have to do composition and summary continuously to improve my writing skills.
And have to make time to read the ultra thick The Straits Time.
Polytechnics stuff + Private O levels stuff = Headache & Stress
Come to think of it now.
Since I retake Combine Humanities, I have to memories two subjects (SS,GEOG) within 6 weeks; which is my semester break. - Will I able to make it??
But, all these without CH are still manageable for the time being.
Just cut down on my sleeping time and cups of coffee will resolve my problems!

Hope my retake O levels grades can score well.
If not it will be a completely waste my time, effort and money. ):

Having troubles at home recently.
What a headache.
Which turned my whole family upside down and in a turmoil.
In and out of hospitals and clinics..
Heart-breaking phone calls; worried and tired faces walking around at home..
Wonder when will all this craps be ended..
"If you are sensible, mature and selfless enough, this thing won't happened at all..."

Life is full of ups and downs.

In another month times, it will be my 1st year anniversary with Jack.
Why time passed so slow?
I felt that this one year passed seemed like 2 years...
Whatever it is, what's more important is that our relationship has last for a year and still counting.

Since tertiary school started, I realized that I had spend mostly of my time with Jack.
To and back from school. Lunch, dinner at school or outside. Study day on Saturday. Midnight calls with him. Webcam-ing with him at night.
Which mean that my life is all about studies and boyfriend.
And it is a good thing (:

School starts at 8am tomorrow.
Torturous.

I'm waiting!

2011-06-08T14:01:00.002+08:00

2 fucking days to holidays.
Eagerly anticipating for it; school is hell for me.
Long hours, billions of practicals and theory test, quiz, projects.
Everyday, when school ended, I will just rot on bed and which that tomorrow is weekend.
Damn damn pathetic.

Buttt..
Friday I'm going to skip school.
HAHAHA!
Bro going to army, whole family going to "tekong island".
So, can enjoy my day slacking.

Have idiot programming practical tomorrow.
Hate programming the most. Duneven know wad its saying.

Took this picture at NYP's library.
Hanged my smelly socks on J's ear due to boredom.

Wide awake!

2011-05-29T00:40:00.003+08:00

Finished Bcom ICA1 speech last week, now I have to prepare for ICA2 speech again.
And it's due on next next week.
Damn pathetic, have to give a speech w powerpoint.
3.5min speech, how to finish it!?

4 presentations and written test this coming week,
2 written test for next next weeks.
All have high weightage which holds the GPA for Year 1, first semester.
Super stress now!

Yet, I'm still procrastinating.
Everyday rot on bed instead of studying or prepared my projects. ):

Been spending almost like everyday w Jack.
Meeting him everyday either to/from school, or lunch/dinner.
Super neglecting my studies now!

Shall mugged harder (:

I'm craving for 925's hokkien mee, rojak and prawn noodles now! T.T

Business communication, screw you!!

2011-05-18T21:45:00.002+08:00

Going to wear formal attire to school tomorrow.
Will be wearing my heels that I wore to prom night.
Hope I don't fall down when I'm walking. -.-

DamnDamnDAMN stress now.
Have to present a speech in front of my class and teacher.
Hope that I can pronounced properly and don't stutter!
Hate it that I seldom speak English, and here comes my karma! ):

Crossed fingers and hope that everything goes well tomorrow! (:

Never Stop Dancing...

2011-05-08T11:33:00.005+08:00

Life, I should say splendid yet boring.
A week flew by in a nick of time.
School, Jack, home, revision/projects, Jack, sleep.

Today, I went to a place..
Whereby this place is somewhere that will caused me to breakdown one year ago.
But, just now, I went to that place again; out of curiosity.
Was shocked and at the same time relieved that the memories of this place don't kill me anymore.
I find it ridiculous that this particular place once brought me so much agony and tears.
Shows me how weak and fragile I was a year ago.
But right now, the past's pain don't affect me anymore. (:
没人能把谁的幸福没收。。。

其實愛對了人情人節每天都過。

Live and breathe.

2011-05-04T17:39:00.003+08:00

Blogging to kill away all my stress cells.
Currently in the 3rd week of my poly life, and many written tests and presentations are coming up around the corner.
Rushing to meet the deadlines.
Plus, poly ended quite late everyday.
So, wasn't that carefree that I thought it will be.
Completely dead when I get home every evening.

Fall ill recently.
Caught w flu and sore throat.
Though it was only a very minor thingy, but I was feeling very uncomfortable.
Was rambling rubbish to J, and at the end got scolded by him over the phone.
Damn pathetic, feel so unwell yet still have to get reprimanded by him.

- Smsing..
Me: "So uncomfortable, going die alrd. Remember to attend my funeral, okay? Ok, i go sleep liao, night night. "
J: " Zz.. What going die? U die, I die w you. "
Me: "Nth la! Maybe tmr i can't wake up then nobody will pei you go school already."
- Phone rang. (Jia lat liao, sure tio kan)
J: "WHAT U SAYING LA! WAD DIE!? blah blah, keep scolding me"
J:"Next time better don't anyhow say hor.I dun like. "

Today;
lectures all the way.
Head cracked by the problematic POA.
Slept through out the 2 hrs lecture of General Module.
POA tutorial. Got make fun by classmates because my name is JUNE. T.T
Lunched at school w classmates.
Tomyam soup; sadly J wasn't there to peeled off the prawn's shells.

Loss my ring (that J gave me) at the toilet.
I took it out when I was washing hands.
Forgotten to wear it back and went back to foodcourt.
Only noticed it after 5 to 15 minutes.. Zzzz
Scare the hell out of me.. Urgh.
Ran back to toilet, despite the floor was flooded w rainwater.
And finally.. THE RING WAS STILL THERE! :D
Great relieved. (:

- 3 things I cannot loss in my life :
Jack, our couple ring & my G! wallet. (:

Couldn't go home w heavy downpour as I didn't bring my umbrella.
So, went to library to search for information about my speech presentation.
Unfortunately, I couldn't find any.
But I borrowed 2 (mind-wellness) books. Weird isn't it? XD
The title of one book is "Love is letting go of fear"
So, this title attracts my attention.
Shall read it. And hopefully it'll benefit me. (:

-Walk out from fear and embrace the future.
Though I have embraced the future, but sometimes should also turn back to look what I had done and been through in the past.

Many ups and downs in our r/s.
Currently, I'm at the ups of our r/s again! (:

Lappy's cammy!!

2011-04-24T20:58:00.004+08:00

Was web-caming w J for the whole afternoon.

Just bought a HP laptop on Saturday on NYP's laptop roadshow. (:
Went their w bro and mum.
I be the tour guide, bro be the consultant and mum is the treasurer.
LOL! (:

So was using lappy the whole day and msning w J.
Was fun thou (:

And I took picture of him while we are msning.
But too bad, I am too noob, have no idea of how to capture the screen.
Didn't download Scape. ): So I used my lousy phone instead.

Show off muscles! :D

My heart melted because of you!

2011-04-17T22:11:00.004+08:00

Bought a wallet as a reward for me using my first pay... :D
& my first branded item. XD

On the floor.

2011-04-14T22:31:00.001+08:00

Picnic w J!! :D
Breakfast at Sakura. Share a plate of mee goreng w J. (:
Headed to NYP.
I went to the theater of arts to buy my books and later then accompany J to get his student card.
Then we bused to Pasir ris.
Bought some food and finger food there.
Hais, but the weather was very bad.
Heavy downpour. ):
When we alighted the bus and walked to Downtown east, we were all wet despite using an umbrella.
But luckily rain stops after awhile, and we continue had our picnic at the park.
Couldn't stand him, I lend him my shaver, and he find it very magical and he kept play w it and didn't even picnic. ):

Sometimes I find it that you always seem so unhappy to spend your time w me.
Every time w me, is either you gave the boring face or sleepy face..
Maybe.. you are not happy to be together w me..

Catching up.

2011-04-13T19:28:00.000+08:00

Meet up w J in the morning. (:
Its has been long since I last saw him.
Sound weird, but indeed we didn't meet each other for sometime.
Many things happened and in the end, we still able to stay together.
Went to catch a movie, Sanctum.
& had a lunch at Jap. foodcourt later on.
Then we took train, I alighted at YCK and head to sch to collect my student card while he went to Bishan.

After that, I headed back to Yishun and went to JW's house to meet up w the rest of the clique.
Slacked awhile and went to Northpoint.
Dinner at XinWang cafe. & while eating, we waited for Heyu to come.
The food in XinWang wasn't really nice though. ):
But it's okay, its also been long since I last saw my clique. (;
Sang birthday song, cut cake for Heyu. As to be a mini bday celebration for her.
Shopped around NP and headed home. (:

Take you there.

2011-03-27T14:13:00.005+08:00

Left 4 more days till my last day of work.
& I finally decided on what to buy for my colleagues as a farewell present.
Not really considered as present though.
More of like treating them w food and officially announced that I'm going to leave that place which I had stayed for 4 months.
Though it seems that 4 months was a short duration of time, but I felt that it was more of like 8 months or something.
Time passed very slowly when I was working.

5th of March.
Met up w J.
He accompanied me to Sata again for medical check up.
And this time this queue was significantly shorter.
I only spend 5 minutes at the clinic.
Shopped around CWP, but it seems that the shopping centre was u/c.
Lunched there.
It was so funny.
J always like to buy cha kueh mix.
Which is a plate, half is white the other is the black one.
In fact, that cha kueh mix was more expensive and I can actually buy 2 plates of it. (:
Movie after that. Had forgotten what is the movie name and the movie content. :S

Headed to Nex.
Went to find his colleague. Shopped around.
Kept talking nonsense to him. XD

Back to AMK.
Buffet dinner w him.
Sort of like sushi cum steamboat buffet.
Was super ex and was not worth it.
Food wasn't nice at all. I might as well go hawker eat their hokkien mee better!
Cheaper and super "ho jia"! (:

Home sweet home after that.

12 of March.
Vivo w J.
Shopped around, walking aimlessly.
Went to the rooftop pool, camwhore.
Took couples of pictures.
Was screaming when I have to walk on the pool bed because all the tiles fragments had fall off.
Went to the pet shop, inside got many cute lil puppies!! (:
PS later on.
Had 'justasia' (don't know who to spell) for dinner.
Mine was herbal chicken. Too bad I am a trad. chinese. Always stick to chinese food. XD
& he ate teriyaki chicken.
Free flow ice cream and drinks.
HAHAHA! :D

Home after that. (:

Remember

2011-02-27T14:57:00.004+08:00

Working throughout the whole month.
And shall continue till end of March.
Everyday drink coffee, which I seldom do, to keep myself awake.

26 Feb 2011
Woke up early.
Breakfast w parent and headed to CWP.
Go for medical checkup at Sata.
Freak pissed off as the queue was super long.
The whole medical process w the registration took me 4 hours to complete, and end around 1.30pm.
Got work at 2pm.
It was the first time I go for work on Saturday as Monday was a confirm heavy OT day.
So at least we clear some cheques on Saturday so that Monday we wont have to work till 2am.
Lucky, dad drove me there and I time in at 1.59pm, so I wasn't considered as late.
Usually travel duration took an hr plus by bus from Woodlands to Tampines.
Lucky I took within half an hour to reach work place.
Off work around 5.30pm.
Went back to Yishun.
And.. I got myself an myphosis's slippers! (:
Love it to the max, shall wear it to work on Monday! :D

13 Feb 2011
Out w Jack, celebrate valentine day in advanced.
Went to Plaza Sing.
Got a couple ring. (:
Mine is gold color and his is black.
That gold color ring was super beautiful. (:
& I love it ttm!
Ajisen for lunch, aston for dinner.
&& J got me an ultra cute hello kitty cup!
& its now at my office, and using it everyday. XD
Even my colleague also say my cup looks cute and they want to get it too.

真的好累

2011-02-04T23:58:00.002+08:00

Continuously work from 10am to 12am from Monday to Tuesday.
14 hours each day. Pathetic.
Walking around the office like living zombie.
Kept drinking coffee to keep myself awake, if not I key in wrong stuff and got scolded.
Have to work on CNY eve too.
Other office in the same building as my office either closed or open for half day.
While mine is full day. So, work till 7pm on CNY eve.

Spend the lunar new year at home, sleep all the way.
Didn't even visit any relative except going to my Grandma house. (:

&& prepare to die on this coming Monday already.
4 days no work, meaning that cheques are accumulating.
So by Monday, have high volume of cheque and I have to work till midnight again! T.T

I realized that I have become too persistent; in a wrong way.
In my mind, I only want to earn more money.
More money so I can use them to pay for my private Os paper & to buy things I want.
But come to think of it.
Even if I finally achieve my target, I was never happy.
Force myself to work for long hours, strain myself.
So what if I can have more money?

Please tell me...
How to revive this r/s?
When both of us are not happy in this r/s..
Tired of all this..

Replay.

2011-01-29T23:27:00.002+08:00

Many thoughts flash through my mind.
From the past to the present and back to the past.
Wondering why so much things had changed all this time.
Actually, it wasn't the things around me that had change.
But it was me who are changing.
Maybe when someone grow older, mindset change and starts to see things in a different way.

Browsing through past posts..
Realised how different I am from the past and current me.

Wonder when I become such an emotional person. :S

28-1-2011, Friday.
Took half day off. (:
Later that evening, went to Msia w family and relative.
Don't know how to describe it.
Messy traffic.
But I remember one thing vv vividly and was damn funny.
Was a convo said by my cousin who was driving.

*He was driving and was reaching to a road junction and the traffic light turns red.
He said, "红灯在 Msia 是什么 leh? 就是继续走!"
And then he sped past the traffic light. LOL.

Ate a lot of weird stuff there.
But I wondered why they still sell food that many flys landed on it. LOL.
Hair stand. :S

Seriously, I getting tired when you finding stuffs to quarrel.
Wanting to quarrel w me over trivial things.
Tired of all this craps.

One time.

2011-01-23T18:16:00.002+08:00

Life went round and round for the past two weeks.

Work like never ending.
Everyday when I opened my eyes in the morning, I have to prepared and off for work.
& the next hour, I already sitting at my desk getting stared on work.
Worked non-stop like a busy bee till late night.
Freaking tired and everyday I have to repeat doing the same thing over and over again.
No life.
But I had no choice, have to continue work till end of March.
And everyday I staring at the calendar, either at work or at home.
Counting how many more days and weeks I have to work.
How many more days to my pay day.
How many more days to weekends.

'O' levels result released.
Was unexpected because seriously, worst marks I got ever.
Didn't know how to react in the first place.
But.. after all. I still have to resign to fate.
Signing up as private candidates; hope I can get good grades and transfer course. (:

Relationship breakdown..
Many many small cracks in it and kept accumulating resulting in big problems.
Nearly on the verge of breaking apart.
But at the end, we salvaged it.
After all, too much unbearable to let go of this r/s.

Heartbeat.

2011-01-09T21:28:00.003+08:00

Monday, 10 of Jan will be the judgment day.

Blood are rushing through out my whole body.
Freaking nervous and scare now!!
I have vision of me sitting at the hall, waiting for Mdm Pillai to call me out to take my results.
Scare that I score very badly and couldn't get into the school and polytechnic I wants.
&& I have no clothes to wear to school tomorrow.
Shorts might be a lil inappropriate too.
But if i wear jeans, I don't wear to nice top to wear. ):
Took one day leave from work, hopefully I have the mood to work on Tuesday. :S

31 December 2010.
All the banks in Singapore closed at 11.30pm.
As a results, staffs from my company were all able to off work earlier than normal time.
&& I am freaking happy.
Firstly, is because I had a free buffet lunch treated by my company for all the employees.
Secondly which is the most important. Is that I was dismissed at 4.45pm!
WTF! Its was the first time since I first started work that when I stepped out of my office, the sun was on the sky. -.-
Because I usually off work around 9pm plus.
I told J that I feel like crying because of my early dismissal and he said that I'm vv lame. -.-

Later in the night, Dad 'put my aeroplane'.
Every year he will take me to East Coast Park to count down, but this year he didn't.
Somemore, he only confirmed w me at the very last minute.
J asked me out in the morning, but I turned down, so he went w his friends instead.
But then I asked him out again, so he was stuck in between.
Think of it now, I was being so demanding at that time. ):
Then, we went for dinner then to East Coast Park.
He bought the luminous stick for me!! :D
There was no fireworks this year. ):
But it's okay as long as he was there w me! (:
Cabbed home after that.

6 January 2011.
Supposed to meet clique at 12pm but I woke up at 11.50am.
& I jumped out of bed when I see the clock.
Quickly prepared and meet clique at NP.
Cafe cartel.
WTF! Its sucks to the max in term of taste and price.
I order espresso and a piece of black forest cake.
The espresso was in such a small serving that I can finished it in one mouth. -.-
& the cake, was hard like stone and freaking sweet.

Hit west w clique.
To Ngeeann poly, quite a long journey though.
Crowded and it was raining. -.-
Bump into Guiyu, Nat and Vivien.
Its has been long since I last saw GY! :D
Later then the rest of the clique went home, me and AJ went to bugis.
HAHAHAH!! I bought one top for work and one cardigan! (:
Shall go for a shopping spree again once I received my pay! (:
Dinner at one noodle restaurant at bugis.
Damn affordable and delicious!! (:
& I feel like going there to dine again!

8 January 2011.
Woke up at 1pm.
I always wake up on the mid day when I have no work.
Tv all the way and meet AJ around 4pm plus and headed to NYP's open house.
We actually sneaked into a room that was meant for parent seminar and we enjoyed free food there. LOL!
Tour around the school, erm..
The school was rather run down I think..?
Then we went to AMK, shopped around and dine at Pizza Hut.
Almost lost our way from amk hub to pizza hut. -.-

9 January 2011.
Dragged J out again! (:
Asked him to accompany me to Northpoint.
Lunched, passed things to cousin's friend, buy stuffs, slacked w him awhile.
Seriously, we kept bickering w each other whenever we are together.
And I kept beat him like some mad women. -.-
&& today, he pushed me and I knocked against a wall which nearly fall down.
So freaking pain.
On the way home, he saw his 'friend'.
Fk him, he was like super happy when he saw his 'friend'.

Shall end here for today. (:

Splendid life.
Awesome moments.
Simple yet happy r/s I'm having now.
This is all I ever wanted after going through so much....

Christmas Day!

2010-12-26T17:10:00.010+08:00

Christmas eve; 平安夜.
Such an important day, yet I still have to work full day.
While I was having lunch break, I saw many people working from other office carry big bags full of present home.
Which mean, they only have to work half day. Whereas I still struck in my office.
But, I received several small Xmas present from my 3 supervisors, company & enjoyed a free Xmas dinner treated by my manager. (:
Log cake, fruit tarts and some other cute dessert.
But luckily, today we have low volume of cheque, so we can off earlier, don't need to work OT!
Therefore, I off work at 7.45 pm! (:
This is earliest off-work time since the first day of my work. (:
Mum drove my uncle's car to fetch me.
Dinner w her and home.
Extremely tired for no reason!

Christmas day!
Woke up at 8am sharp.
Seriously I hate that my bio-clock had fixed itself to make me wake up at 8am everyday ):
Breakfast w parent.
Shared a dirty joke w my father while we were eating and got scolded by my mum! :S
Later in the noon, out of Jack.
Was wearing heels at first and he swore to me that I sure will fall and said I walked very "unnatural". _l_
In the end, I went home and change back to my flat heels.
Orchard, walk aimlessly. Then headed to City hall.
& was strolling from explanade to the vommiting Merlion and walk one big round to Marina Bay Sands.
We was so "lucky" that a heavy downpour came while we was walking.
So we went into a shelter. After sometime we then realised the wall behind was actually a door to the side of the shopping mall of MBS.
Was standing there waiting for the rain to stop like 2 idiots -.-
Shopped around & had our dinner at a very special restaurant w a very unique scenery.
A big water fountain beside us and a bridge not far from us. (:
& also not cheap either. :S

Today, 26 December 2010.
Stay at home and rest.
& right now, Mum is preparing for the dinner - STEAMBOAT! (:
Yeah, my family tradition.
Steamboat twice a year. One at CNY, the other at Xmas day.
Since yesterday me and my brother not at home, we postpone the dinner to today.
But I'm so full, ate a lot of junk food just now! (:

Shall end here! (:
& Here are the pictures took yesterday:

Finally I got it.

2010-12-18T20:01:00.009+08:00

6 months have passed, my cousin finally send me those those pictures that we took Taiwan using his camera.

Shall post it here. (:

Hangover.

2010-12-05T15:22:00.010+08:00

It has been long since I last blog.
Was flooded w stuffs every single day.
Tired to the max!

Summarize of the days.

22-11-2010

My black hair was gone, and became brown! :D
&& I like the color, so nice.
Never regretted dying it. (:
I LOVE MY BROWN HAIR!

23-11-2010

Out w J, movie at Yishun GV, lunched at CWP and walked around at Bishan.

25-11-2010

PROM NIGHT! :D
Met HY under my block and headed to Qian Bian's house.
As usual, kept bickering w her.
Later then, J, JW reached.
& five of us had our make up and hair done.
Cabbed down to Carlton Hotel.
I remember smth, damn funny.
Qian Bian's mum reminded Qian Bian to be gentle and don't fight w me at the hotel.
HAHAHAHAHAH! ROFL! :D
Enjoyed my night there, and continue bicker w Qian Bian over the table.
Took quite a number of photographs. (:
J waited at the hotel & fetched me home.

29-11-2010

Woke up reluctantly in the morning.
Met SC, JW & HY.
& Headed to Changi Airport, T3 to send SR off.
She's going to Sarawak w the school. ]
AJ & QY came after that.
Wow, 7 of us. (:
I didn't brought along my jacket, was damn cold there!
Cold and hungry. ):
Lunched there.
Then job interview, shopping at bugis, home.

Later the week...
Got a job.
Freak tired. Have to work overtime for almost everyday.
But the pay was real good, and my colleague there treated me as their sister too.
Because I'm the youngest in the whole office. (:

Beautiful life.

2010-11-21T11:41:00.004+08:00

Wednesday.

Spend my whole morning watching The Mentalist.
Til my eyes went sore and feels damn bored.
Decided to give J a surprised while he's working.
Hahaha! Damn funny.
When I suddenly appeared beside him, he totally stunned and couldn't react.
After a few min he then realized the person is me. -.-
Waited awhile for his lunch break and went for lunch! :D
Originally wanted to wait for him till he ended work, but got chased away by him! ):

Thursday.

Meet SC. Then went to 3 different places to decide on which place to have our yoga lesson. (:
At the end, we chose the Khatib one.
Many funny things happened in between.
Haha, still could rmb clearly how SC will make a heart you hand-sign. :S
Later then meet J while he's working.
Go disturb him. This time waited 2 hrs for him to end work.
Wait until all my white hairs grow out! :S
Dinner w him and I can't stand his guailan-ness. :D
He send me home and flirt w my fat cat. zzzz.
How dare my fat cat favor him more. ):
Rest her head on his leg somemore!

Friday.

Town w HY.
Shop for Prom stuff.
Couldn't find anything suitable through out the whole building. ):
At the end I bought one dress(a lil inappropriate though) & a pair of heels! :D
Dine at Botak Jones! (:
Later then meet J at his work place again.
Reached exactly at his off work time!
Home after that. (:
Got scolded by mum for buying that clothes. zzz
She told me 'Ah girl ah, 2 cup of beer pls.'. Dulan.

Saturday.

Dad home from overseas. And he skipped work today.
Shit him. -.-
He stay at home and disturb me the whole day.
Meet SC in the late afternoon. Went for yoga class. :D
& I didn't perspire throughout the lesson. LOLS!
But fun too. At least could have a bit of exercise rather than sleeping. (:
Later then, went CWP w mum.
& bought a new dress! hehe!
Home after having dinner (:

2010-11-10T22:34:00.002+08:00

Happy 3rd month anniversary! (:

Getting lazy to continue blogging. (:
Shall go to bed alrd! (:

Stress ah!

2010-10-07T20:37:00.004+08:00

O levels is just 18 days away.
OMG! Scare the hell out of me!
I don't want to fail my english and physics! :S

Awww.. Eating a lot of craps recently.
Ice cream, chocolate, Hokkien Mee.
All high calories food. -.-
Shall go for diet again. :D
If not my tummy will grow from 3 mth to 6 mth. :S

Can't believe myself from scolding "Lanjiao" so loud in class.
Zzzz. I thought it would come out from my mouth like the way I always do.
But I dunno why this time it became so loud that my whole class and Mr Goh heard it.
WTF.
The class was silent, and suddenly I shouted LJ!
And everyone turned back and laughed out loud.
Mr Goh looked at me with the 'SHOCKED' look. -.-
Damn paiseh can. -.-
Zzzz. All thanks to LIM SIEW CHENG! T.T
Lanjiao la you! Still dared to laugh at me when Mr Goh looked at me. zzzzzzzzz!
我好想把你强奸掉!! :DD

Some stuffs happened in our r/s.
But eventually we overcomed it with no difficulties. (:
And it's getting a lot better than last time.

Built to last.

2010-09-28T19:11:00.000+08:00

Out w AJ & QY.
Bugis!
Seoul Garden; which caused my tummy to pop out as if I'm 3 mth pregnant. -.-
Went shopping at B. Streets.
HAHAH! I bought many clothes recently.
:D

I didn't late for this outing! (:

2010-09-21T17:47:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO MA JIAWEN!
AIYO! 18 YEARS OLD LIAO!!? :D
Old women! HAHA! JOKING! (:

Lunched at Sizzler.
And was freaking expensive. -.-
Then town w AJ.
HAHAHAAH!! SHOPPING TIME! (:
Bought a lot of accessories and dinner at Hans.
I'm officially declared bankrupt.

Funny convo!
J: "我穷到要去 Geylang 站了! "
AJ: Scolded me w many vulgarities & pointed me middle finger. -.-

HAHAHAAH!!! :D

Lim Qian Bian, the most guailan human in the world! :D

Happiness

2010-09-10T00:56:00.006+08:00

September holiday is an disaster week uh!
Spending every minutes studying.
Standard routine: Study, Eat, Study, Sleep!
Pathetic and tired. Wondered how long can I withstand this kind of torture.

June's life is improving.
& It's getting better and better as every seconds went by. (Y)

You act like a catalyst in my life; speeding up every part of my life.
Bringing me out of the misery state in such a short period of time.
I'm moving on from the past effortlessly.
& right now, I'm starting a new chapter of life w you.
You painted colours to my life, putting smiles to my face.
&& HAPPY 1st MONTH ANNIVERSARY! :D
Hoping that there are more anniversary to come! (:
Better treat me better! If not I show you my big muscles uh! :D

Never forgetting my clique and friends.
Who has been there w me at the first moment when things happened.
Thanks for being there and giving me moral support. Which is really a great encouragement and let me know that I'm not alone. & Sorry to make all of you worried.
Though many unhappy things happened in between, but some hiccups in friendships may make us even more united in some ways. (:

"Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good or bad luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments or true greatness and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of the soul.
Without these small tests, if they be events, illnesses or relationships, life would be like a smooth paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. Safe, comfortable but dull and utterly pointless."

Overdue pictures :

每段感情都非常珍贵.
他的好我就放在心扉里,时间久了想起他还有些体会.
而到那时也已经无所谓了.

Everlasting Friendship!

2010-08-28T20:39:00.004+08:00

Pictures depict a thousand words :

22-8-2010

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO HOO SZER CHYI!
(BANG BANG!) :S

Cut cake at school.
Meet out w SC, SR, AJ!
Slacked at np, buy present, walking around aimlessly.
Aston! Daiso!
Bought a ultra cute cats memo pad. HAHAAH! (:
Then went to some places.
Home.

Sorry that I didn't gave you a well-planned bd celebration.
Sorry that I wasn't thoughful about my words.
Sorry that I hurt you in the course of my actions.
I wasn't being mindful.
& Thanks for telling me your heartfelt words. (:

27-8-2010

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO AH TANG (SHI RUI)!!

It's a miracle

2010-08-21T00:41:00.003+08:00

终于, 放下心中一块很大的石头 ! (:

After all these months, all this time, so much has happened. If I were to look back on them, I would never believe that, that person was once me. I wouldn’t recognise that girl because she’s so different from me. But I guess changing and moving on is part of growing up. I’m growing up and finding out what kind of person I want to be for the rest of my life. And maybe in the future, there are more changes to come.

Right now, I can't believe that I have to go through another round of changes in life for allowing myself to fall in love w you.
You this country pumpkin. I know you always view my blog.
So after you read this, you better treat me well if not I will cook you.(Pumpkin soup)

And finally.
After some sort of interrogation by clique, I confessed everything to them.
& it turned out better than I expected and in fact they are supporting me and giving me advice!
Phew! :D
And I don't know why I got extremely happy after pouring out everything that kept inside my heart for a quite long period of time. (:
Thanks clique! Loveeee you all! :D

Lastly, a guy w good personalities and character surpass everything.

Hide-away.

2010-08-17T00:41:00.005+08:00

Why.. Everything is going the other way round?
The matter is getting bad to worse.
In fact, this was only a small thing.
I wondered why I can't do whatever I want.
And everything I did doesn't seem correct in other people's eyes.

Don't pass judgement on someone when you doesn't get the whole story.
Hear my part of explanation and get a conclusion instead of guessing around.
I do not want to result in more misunderstandings.
Shouldn't relied on unreliable source and distrust my credibility.

Stress.
My mind is in a whirl.
I don't know what to do next.

Baby, I need you.

2010-08-07T20:43:00.003+08:00

Sometimes, things just won't turn out the way you wish it could be.

Changes.

2010-08-06T13:23:00.001+08:00

National Day Cum Racial Harmony Day celebration.

Head to AMK after school w MX, LSC,MJW,J,HY!
& we walked around wearing our ethnic costume which attacted quite amount of attention.
Took neoprints with our costume.
Finally, changed! & had lunched together.
Then trained to town and sing K! (:
3.30pm to 7pm! Sore throat!
*I will box those people who don't appreciate my singing! (:

Lighting don't strike the same place twice.

2010-08-01T17:48:00.006+08:00

Orchid Park Secondary School
4S2'2010

Can't stop laughing at Charlotte's pose.
I wondered will all these pictures be printed at the school magazine?
And let the whole school know that 4S2'10 is a barbaric class. LOLS!

I love Juthaporn to the max!!
She is my partner for almost everything.
Stick together at class, science lab, tuition, cca, assembly(if she nv change place), remedial.
& I think because of this, she got deeply influence by me. (Y)
She started to become quite vulgar and pervertic.
Which in the end I got scolded by many friends! *FUNNY!
" Walao eh! JUNEEE!! 你把Juthaporn教坏了! " :D

Suddenly have the urge to post about this because I want to thanks her.
She had taught me a lot of stuffs and gave me a lot of "love letters"! (:
Which I kept it nicely in my school organizer.

Juthaporn!
Hope you see this! (:

Picture of me and Juthaporn.
& Lim Qian Bian at the top left, the third party.
(The one with the slanted weird bangs!)
Shall mosaic her face because she always guai lan me!
*She going to spam my tagboard w vulgarities when she see this!
HAHAHAHA! :D

What's wrong with me?
Sometimes I feel that maybe..
what all my friends said about me were true after all.

I had changed so much..
Until I don't even recognised myself anymore.

God, please grant me with strength.
& let me be stronger to overcome all obstacles.

Once upon a time, we swore not to say goodbye.
But something got a hold of us and we changed.
I sit and press rewind and watch us every night..
I wanna pause it, but i can't make it stay..

Two is better than one.

2010-07-30T00:48:00.000+08:00

27 July 2010
Happy 16th birthday to Jia Wen!! (:
You must love cats and stop "condescend" on me! HAHAHA! :D

23 July 2010

Advanced JiaWen's birthday celebration with AJ,HY,SC,SR,J,LSC,MX,MJW,SJW.
A group of ten people. (:
Steamboat at Novena.
I love the tom-yam soup, extremely hot!
&& I finally ate my favourate BLACKFOREST CAKE!
Contented! (:
LSC, J,MX,MJW went home first and the rest of us went to bugis.
Neoprints, walk around.
& My contact lens are killing me. :(

Pictures :

Cherry My Only ♥

Stand by me.

2010-07-16T23:32:00.004+08:00

School is boring as always.
& lucky I still have a nice story book with me, if not I would have sleep in class.

Guitar Ensemble farewell session after school.
& bused home with SC! (:

Lucky that I have a strong heart, if not I already drop dead by what happened just now.

Resisting to change.

2010-07-10T23:34:00.005+08:00

Loathe to have changes in life.
Especially changes that were force by unforeseen circumstances.

Mental torment.
This is the what I'm going through now.
Hanging and clinging on to something that I shouldn't have.

I'm left with nothing except our memories..
And I will continue with life with this memories.
Reminiscise it and never forget it.

You have move on effortlessly yet I'm still struggling to move on with life.

Overdue Pictures. -

2010-06-24T00:05:00.003+08:00

I don't know whether you will see it anot.
But I will still post it anyway. (:

爱京！快点回来啦！
我很想念你！
一整个月没有看见你了！
(:

Oh! Baby, I love you! (:

2010-06-19T02:28:00.006+08:00

JERRY, 言承旭 I LOVEEEEE YOU TO THE MAXXX!!! (:
我爱你! ♥ x 1000000!!

On the edge, trying to survive.

2010-06-12T23:23:00.006+08:00

- Angels Cry by ♥ Mariah Carey.

Time, refers to a duration regarded as belonging to the present life as distinct from the life to come or from eternity; finite duration.

Time, can change a person or "wash" away a lot of things.
I, myself experienced it.
So many things happened to me for the past years and indeed changed me life tremendously.
My appearance, thinking, sensibility and maturity.
It also let me understand the harshes of reality.

Time, "wash" away many fond and unwanted memories.
Journey down my vague memory lane, I can hardly remember.
All those wonderful times I spend with my primary school friends; those jokes and laughter.
Remember I used to chat with them over the phone for many hours.
Spammed calling them to wake them up and go for outings.
Not only that, all those times in 1a3'07 and 2a3'08.
The most memorable and wonderful time in my life.
I will never ever forget that.

Luckily, I had forgotten those painful memories that haunted me for months.
Gradually forgetting(forcefully) how much I been through.
To forget someone and along with the memories linked with that someone.
But.. I need more time. To completely get over that someone.
Bleeding open wounds will take a long time to recover and a deep scar will forever be there.

One must learn to treasure the importance of time.
To cherish what they have now and the people around them, don't wait until they are gone and trying to regret of what you had done.

The taste of regretful.. is awfully unbearable.
& I don't want to experience it again.

*Bear with my broken english. (:

Movie time!

2010-06-11T23:02:00.004+08:00

Late night movie with Zoelyn @ CWP.
Catch A.team at 9.30pm.
Nice movie, I like the effect.

After the movie ended, the whole cwp was empty.
All the shops and elavators were close. Spooky.
LOLS. (:
Went back to Yishun and slacked around.
And accompanied her to board the bus home.

Home around 1am plus. (:
First time I ever went out with friend that late and home so late.

My sweet 16th birthday!

2010-06-05T20:06:00.009+08:00

Mr Saktun's physics lesson, lunched at the place we recently hanged out, Mr Ramesh's chemistry remedial.

Lot 1, Changi Airport T3 with AJ, HY, JW, SC, SR,QY!

♥ 我爱我的好朋友们

她，回来了。

2010-06-03T21:30:00.002+08:00

Cherry.. Is back with me.
Which implied that everything had officially putting a stop.
Can't do anything anymore.. Crying is the only thing I do now.

Life in school today.
SS lesson in the morning, cup noodle of breakfast, camwhore with fat cat, slacked at playground, Maths remedial, home.

It's hard to be strong.

Everything is in a mess.

2010-06-02T20:49:00.002+08:00

Life, is full of miserable stuffs.
Especially my life.

Nothing is smooth for me uhh.
I need to get a hair rebond. I want all those acne scars to vanish now. I want to slim down. I want to get many new clothes and replenish my make-up supplies. I need a new piercing!! :D

&& still got a lot of things have to be done.
Stress.

Why time keep ticking in a snail pace?
Hope time can pass faster.

I wondered why I feel so tired everyday.
我真的很累。

! (:

2010-05-30T16:03:00.004+08:00

你活该！
Serve you right. _l_

Junee is in a ultra hyper happy mood.
Why?
Because I'm a happy single lady.

2010-05-17T20:29:00.003+08:00

I want to be emotionally strong.

Financially Broke (:

2010-05-14T11:08:00.010+08:00

Bugis with AJ, JW, AT.
Lunched at Ajisen!
I always can't finished it. What a waste.

Watched Iron Man 2 @ Illuma.
Overall, it's not bad. But I don't really like it. Lols.

Shopping time! :D
Ai Jing and me spend almost 70 bucks each.
And our wallets left only 20+ bucks.
It feels so terrible with a few bucks left.
Confined to buy many stuff.
And it was so difficult to find an ATM machine.

Sweet cravings time at J.Co!
Baby donuts and chocoforest!
The chocoforest taste weird. But the donuts are nice.

AJ, go ahead with your $60 piercing!
I give you moral support.
Let the fierce looking tattoo man pierce for you!!
I'll accompany you! (:

♥ Mariah Carey.

Why Should I?

2010-05-07T21:01:00.003+08:00

Many things went through my mind recently.
Mostly all the craps that aren't worth to think of.
Yeah, whatever.
Bad memories aren't worth to remember.
Why should I care, and why should I bother about it?
The best way is to HECK CARE ! :D

I flunk my MYE's papers.
Prepare to go for SSP during the June holidays alrd.
Everyday I go to hall with only a slight knowledge about that subject.

&& there are sooo many things that I wants to do after the exam or even after O lvls.
ANTICIPATING!

离开他不等于我的世界会崩溃。

Reminiscing.

2010-04-30T21:56:00.010+08:00

I missed the time I spend during the Taiwan trip.
The weather, food, hotel, people and the scenery there.

Bei Tou, on the way to hot spring trip. :D

YW & J!

At the peak of Yang Ming Shan.

Monga did their casting here!

Okay, back to topic.
Finally, 2 papers down.
2 more weeks to go!
Aim to get 4 A1s. But I'm starting to doubt myself.

Sometimes, hatred can also be a form of motivation.

Fortunate.

2010-04-23T17:30:00.006+08:00

I'm lucky to have so many friends who supported me when I'm going through difficult times.
& I love 4s2 because I have a lot of funny classmates and we shared a lot of memories together.

Ai Jing cut this for me. Which inscribe my favourite phrase. Funny. :D

Encouragement Notes! (:

"Nothing is predestined: The obstacles of your past can become the gateways that lead to new beginnings." - Ralph Blum

我，不再相信。

2010-04-18T17:02:00.009+08:00

Yesterday went to Changi Airport, Terminal 1 to welcome back my brother.
He's back after 6 weeks of attachment.
T1 was damn crowded; human congestion.
We waited for almost 45 minutes.
My mum damn kan chiong,
she elbowed her way and stood infront of the gate, anticipating anxiously for my brother.
But now, she can finally put a stop after 6 weeks of worrying and spam-calling. (:

Control Tower!

Can spot me?

Dad & June!

" 如果他总为别人撑伞,
你何苦非为他等在雨中?
挥别错的才能和对的相逢."
- 分手快乐

Photographs!

2010-04-17T13:21:00.011+08:00

Live Your Life.

2010-04-16T11:49:00.002+08:00

School today was busy as always.
Chinese Essay workshop after school.
Oh damn, this is the first time I put all my hard work in doing it.
Lols! (:
Was singing in class while doing the essay, and got "diao" by so many people.
Eh! You all should appreciate my talent, instead of criticising it! (:

After the workshop,

Orchard-ing with clique; AJ, HY, SC, SR, JW, QY!

We were frantically locating Aston.
& some more Heyu's "good" sense of direction made it more complicated.
HAHAH! She led the whole group and at the end, all of us got lost in Heeren.
Damn funny! (:
Luckily, we found the restaurant at the end.

Oh, I got a bunch of photo-maniac friends.
Whom kept snapping photograph non-stop. (:
I think in total, we took about over 100+ photos!?
Shall post up the photographs when I got all the photographs ready.

I find today's "quote of the day" is ultra-meaningful !

"You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when. But you can decide how you're going to live now." - Joan Baez

He Yu's birthday!

2010-04-14T21:36:00.000+08:00

Happy 16th birthday to He Yu!! :D
Wait for me, and lets watch NC 16 movie together!

Stayed back after school and had a mini-celebration for Heyu.
Cut cake, take photos, present time!
We managed to complete the photo album.
This photo album includes a lot of shared memories & hard work!

" Love grows by giving. The love we give away is the only love we keep. The only way to retain love is to give it away. " - Elbert Hubbard

Follow Up.

2010-04-12T20:10:00.006+08:00

Continue update of pictures took during Arts Panache III!
Click to enlarge! (:

Arts Panache III !

2010-04-11T16:40:00.007+08:00

Okay, update of Arts Panache III.

Meet up with Heyu and then headed to school.
We was late and lucky Mdm Wong helped us, if not we would get scolded by that Ms Fazila.
Once we reached the venue, we quickly got changed, make-up and start practice.
Lunched, briefing, rehearsals, dinner, make-up again, photo-taking.

And.. time flew shiftly and its 7.30pm. Time to perform.
Waited and waited for our turn after the choir finished.
When its our turn, quickly get into position and starts.
So many audience out there! Almost full house!
2 pieces of music and we are done.

Out of stage, back to holding area.
So many people were screaming and cheering. (:
Packed up and chiong-ed to meet SC & SR!
Took some photos and rushed back to bus.
Stupid teachers! So kan chiong to go back to school for what!!
Zzzz. There were still many Cca groups still left in the venue.

Back to OPSS.
Put back our guitar and stands.
Photo session again!
Took tons of photograph! :D
And at last, HOME!

Thanks friends for msging me and wishing me good luck! (:

"Emotions surround us, and sometimes we let them get in our way. If we can learn how to control them and share them with someone who we care about than we have learned how to exept ourselves in new ways." - Annoymous.

2010-04-10T09:26:00.001+08:00

Going to perform at Paya Lebar Methodist Girl later at 7.30pm.
Damn nervous.
Now its 9.30am and I got to go to school now.
Will update 2moro! (:

2010-04-08T21:24:00.004+08:00

Tomorrow will be Arts Panache III full dress rehearsal.
It will be a 12 hours rehearsal.
Torturing.
I wondered if I can perform well with a mask & hat on.
So many obstructions.

Anticipating that this concert will be enjoyable memories for me. (:

I still owed Mdm Pillai tons of homework.
Which can trace back to March holiday.

"When one door closes another door opens; but we often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us."
- Alexander Graham Bell

2010-04-04T12:08:00.003+08:00

Arts Panache III coming up on next Saturday.
Getting excited that I can perform on stage again.
I stayed back almost everyday for rehearsals or remedial.
Although I'm exhausted, but I loved to keep myself busy and occupied.

Ton of tests are coming up in the following 2 weeks.
Yet I still slacking and sleep in class everyday.
Who cares!? :D

Fantasy had dissipated.
& I'm moving forward to the future.
Looking ahead and anticipating for the future,
than trapping in the past, regretting what I had done.

Aim : 4 subjects distinction for the 'O's. (:

2010-03-28T17:08:00.005+08:00

Spend more time with friends and family.
& concentrate on studies and cca is my aim for now.

And slowly slowly..
I'm walking out of this relationship.
Recover from the pain and get a life.
(:

Happy birthday Siew Cheng!
You must learn to love cat la! :D

26.3.2010

Woodlands library with AT, JW, HY, AJ.
And we are studying! (:
Rare eh!?

Oh, my CA1 score sucks!
I failed 3 subjects.

Why do you want to enter into our life?

If not things will be so complicated now.

Nabei.

2010-03-23T21:53:00.003+08:00

I deleted the previous post; which was a crap.

I'm not alone.
And was never alone.

From this thing happened recently, I lost and benefited a lot.

This is a lesson to learn.
If I fall and learn from the pain, I will be stronger in the future..

What's important now is to look forward to the future.
Don't brood over what has happened. Instead, I should be happy that there's still others who're still there by myside, no matter what.

Though it will be hard.. But, it's a process of life..

All this are encouraging words that I got from my friends.

I know that I am damn weak that can't overcome setbacks..
But I will try.. for my sake and to fulfill my promises to all my friends..

30-3-2010

2010-03-20T13:03:00.003+08:00

Finally. I got the courage to blog again.

So many things happened recently. And I don't know whether I still had the strength to continue with life.
Of the sixteen years of my life.. I had never been through all this..painful process of life.
If I can. I want time to rewind back so I will never met him before.
And.. I won't have to be.. struggling to be strong and get on with such life.

I want to migrate to Taiwan, so that I won't be affected by those painful memories.

13 to 17 March.

Holiday at Taiwan.
I love the weather there, I love the food, the people, the clothes, the hot spring, the scenery.
Love almost everything there.
Yeah, all the pictures were posted in my facebook. (:
I think I took over 100 pictures. Lols.

Thanks friends for being there for me when I needed help.
By consoling me, emotionally and physically being there for me.
Though I brought a lot of troubles for you all. Sorry.

7-3-2010

2010-03-07T11:18:00.003+08:00

5-3-2010

Cross country @ MacRitchie Reservoir.
I didn't slack this year!
I ran for the whole 3.6km run. Though I walked sometimes. (:
Felt so good after the run.

ICA with mum to collect my new passport.
Fuck them lah.
Waited so many hours just to collect one book.
):

Went to find AJ & JW at Plaza Sing.
AIJISEN AGAINN! :D

10 more days!!
I can retrieve my phone in 10 more days.

7-3-2010

Bro went to Zhengzhou, China for 6 week attachment programme.
& He bring along his camera, and I'm have no phone & camera to Taiwan.
Shag.

BYE BROTHER!
See you in 6 weeks time.
Lols.

5-3-2010

2010-03-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

Ultra stress.
Really vvvvvvv stress.
Everything was unsmooth for me.
Life is so pathetic and meaninglesss.
Urghh, wtf.

3-3-2010

2010-03-03T18:54:00.004+08:00

Things are getting more and more complicated. And I can't take it anymore.

"Ultra Stress!"
Millions of homework, tests and remedial.
And I still left with many overdue homework!! ):

Teachers are *&%$#@ !! Sb kaobei.
Fuck that Goh for confiscating my phone.
No phone for 2 weeks.
And I don't dare to tell my father. Zzz.

Guitar training today.
And I managed to play the whole song!! YEAH!
A great accomplishment! :D

And you.
You are the biggest weakest in my life.
Really very hard to forget you.
What can I do now? ):

28-2-2010

2010-02-28T12:14:00.003+08:00

Meet me halfway - BEP.

Finally I see the light.
Motivation;
that encourage me to continue with life & won't indulged on 'it' anymore.

25-2-2010

Stayed back to watch OP Idol & also to support Heyu.
So tired uh..
It was like doing to same as 2008 when HY also took part in OP Idol.
Got hit by the edge of the banner on my forehead by AJ & QY's violence swing.
Ultra pain. T.T
EH! Must forked out money for my medication fee! :D

26-2-2010

CWP with AJ and QY.
Ajisen for dinner. (:
Watched "Little Big Soldier".

23-2-2010

2010-02-23T19:04:00.002+08:00

Stay back almost everyday!
Urghh! ):

'O' levels Chem Spa tomorrow.
What if I don't know how to do the calculations!?
Scareeee :S

Lead a new life.

18-2-2010

2010-02-18T20:27:00.002+08:00

Rotting at home during CNY.
Bored to the max!

Tired!
So many homework undone.
And I finally finished the compo that I owed Mdm Pillai for 1 month.
(:

Got 20.5/25 for my amaths test. :D
Not really contented because..
to compare between studies and you.
I will choose you.

So many things had happened recently.
Stressful and frustrated.
Can you forgive me of what I had done.
I had realised my mistakes and won't do it again.. ):

12-2-2010

2010-02-12T09:50:00.000+08:00

Reached school earlier than normal.
Went to LM room to help out to pack those roses for sales.
So busy!
Later then, setting up a booth.
and followed by many things that I am lazy to elaborate on.

Later at noon, FEP with AJ.
Walk until my legs went sore.
YEAH. Finally brought a new bag! (:

So fast, CNY is coming.
But I didn't have any joyous atmosphere at all..
SIAN.
Dread that "the day" will be coming.
Hate this year Valentine day and CNY.

2010-02-06T21:34:00.002+08:00

Why life is always full of obstabcles??
Things always turn out to be another way round..

There are so many up(s) and down(s).
It was tough and I can't cope with it.

Wish that everything will be easy for me..

3-2-10

2010-02-03T22:05:00.003+08:00

Sleeppyy~
I slept almost 9 hours yesterday and didn't even studied for geog test.
Yet I still woke up relucutantly at 6.30 in the morning.
Lols!
School was ultra boring, teachers are getting more and more long winded and irratating.

2-2-10

Had a long day in school.
Gym-ed in the afternoon with HY, SR, SC.
Suppperr tireed!!!
Old tan fetched me to work, had dinner & headed home.
(:

18-1-2010

2010-01-18T21:02:00.011+08:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO AI JING!! :D

Can go watch NC 16 movies alrd! Envy! (:

15-1-2010

J8 & PS with HY and SC to buy pressie for AJ.
Tabolek tahan with "Hoo Pai Ciu" !, she kept bully me sia! (:
She is very happy to see that I became "pai ka".

16-1-2010

Pon Just tuition today and went to celebrate AJ's birthday.
Aston @ SSC with AJ, HY, JW, SC, SR, MX, Jon & Joel.
Lunched, cut cake, take photos.
& headed to town!

9-1-10

2010-01-09T22:07:00.004+08:00

Flag day @ Bishan Mrt!

Tired but fun! (:
Many people donated for me & I shouldn't have donate it myself to meet the mini. requirement.

AJ and HY came to my house.
Slack slack awhile then went to meet the rest at bishan

The more I wanted to forget you, the more I remember the past.

I'm afraid the stay alone or be quiet..

Really vv scared.

If not memories will rewind back..

Trying so hard to forget everything. But I can't..

Wadever thing i do, it makes me think of you..

Who can helped me?

8-1-10

2010-01-08T21:13:00.003+08:00

TIRED!

Went to Singapore Poly's open house on thurday.
On the bus to and fro was damn noisy.
Cause all of us keep joke around and I kept singing!
My singing was so nice, yet they kept criticizing me! ):

SP was damn big, and so crowded!!

Ngee Ann ploy's open house today.

& I had alrd decide on what course to take! (:
- Tourism and resort management @ SP.

Although the cut off points is 10, which is very tough.
But I will try ultra hard.

3-1-01

2010-01-03T23:28:00.001+08:00

31 -12- 2009

Went to East Coast Park to count down for 2010 with my parents.

There was so crowded and damn hard to find a parking lot.
Dad brought growing sticks for me, and I wore it. (:
Reached the jetty at 12am sharp.
And from there, we watched the fire works from The Float.
Thought the fireworks were vv small because the distance was very far, but it was still very nice.
& the fireworks lasted for 15min.

Back home around 1.30am.
Counting down with family was fun! Especially with my father :D

2-1-2010

Drank beer with my father, because he dare me that I will drunk within 1 slip.
At the end, I drank three quarter of 1 can of Heineken, and drunk.
Hahahs. I am so noob! (:

3-12-2010

Still left so many holiday homework undone!
& I don't feel like doing it at all ):
School starting tomorrow. Sian.
Can't believe that I going to wake up at 6am 2moro, cause gonna meet up with girlfriends before going to assembly. (:

30-12-09

2009-12-30T22:30:00.004+08:00

Since things end up like this..
Then maybe it's time to let go and move on with my life.
Although life will be more lonely, I will try to get use to it.
Hope that the next guy will be better, & I will also stop being wilful.

Thanks all my friends who console me for the past few weeks.
Which helped me to feel much better and give me support.
Really appreciate it. :D

29-12-09

2009-12-29T21:15:00.003+08:00

School going to reopen in 6 more days.
Finally.
At least I have something to occupy my mind. (:

Although I was rotting at home everyday, but I still feel very tired..
Because I kept having nightmares everynight.
I had to wake up every few hours just because of those damn nightmares.
Pathetic uh. All the bad things just come to me when I'm feeling down.

如果家里有酒的话，我早就已经醉死了。

2009-12-16T20:26:00.005+08:00

I HATE THIS 2009 YEAR END HOLIDAY!!
LONG & MISERABLE HOLIDAY!
I LOATHED IT TO THE COREEEEEEEE!!

PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN PAIN
ALL IS NOTHING BUT PAIN!!!!

Everything now is set forever.
No matter how I begged, things will not changed anymore.
All is memories now- Neoprints, smses, msn chat, games, sweet talks, all the hug & kissses.
Gone.
But I will still continue loving you & wait patiently.

Elton, really thanks for all the love & care you gave me.

All the happy & sad moments, I will treasure it.

No matter how long, all this memories will never be forgotten.

& sorry for causing you so much pain.

I love you, my dearest friend.

Cherry, my cutest daughter for all.

My love for you will never end.

Although I can't see you anymore, but I still have your pictures with me.

Missed you always.

I willing to endure any pains for you.

All the pain I gone through means nothing for me.

Because I am the fault. The problems lies on me.

2009-12-04T21:00:00.002+08:00

Why whatever I do, you just don't believe me?
I know that I had make you lost all your trust in me.. But this time I'm serious..
I won't give any empty promises again...
It's pain.. Really pain..
I knew that I can't give up.. But.. I scare you may begin to loathe me..
What should I do??
Why I had to suffer all this!?

28-11-09

2009-11-28T20:15:00.002+08:00

The pain is getting stronger and stronger..
I can't endure it anymore..

风也没办法把你带回来。

27-11-09

2009-11-27T22:40:00.003+08:00

Went to town with AJ, SC & SR.
Lunched at Pastamania.
Took neoprint twice.

And then catch a movie at Cine, The Twilight Saga New Moon.
Wah piang!
I completely don't understand the whole movie, because there is no subtitle!
The plotting is so luan and the ending sucks!
The movie ended half way. Zzz.
Shopped around and headed home.

So tired!
But, its nice to feel tired.
Because I can fall asleep easily.
Recently can't sleep well because I kept thinking of that thing.

How long do I have to wait?

I'm scare that I will give up..

I kept convincing myself that I still have chance, but...

you kept giving me ironical remarks & treated my coldly.

It's really.. very pain..

Who can understand me?

Yi Ban lyrics

2009-11-24T21:12:00.003+08:00

一半 - 言承旭

This song really depict of my situation & feelings now ):

一直等一个人等了很久
这一场独角戏是很寂寞
春夏秋冬我的窗口只有风经过

爱很深有多深我也不懂
你走后我的心变的脆弱
听一首歌也觉得痛
但我谁也没有说

右边的座位右边的枕头
都已经空了那麼久
为你守候那是因为我已经看透

没有你的爱
这个我只是一半
不哭了不笑了
为谁努力我也不明白

没有人能取代
一个圆的另一半
我固执的等待
等风再把你带回来

23-11-09

2009-11-23T20:09:00.003+08:00

焦虑，兴奋，担心.

I am scared for the answer that you are going to give me tomorrow.

Hope it will be the answer that I yearn of.

Panic with fear.

21-11-09

2009-11-21T22:49:00.005+08:00

Why my english so poor?
So xia suey lor, so many spelling & grammar errors in my post.
hahahas.
Maybe I will try to use chinese to blog, so that there won't be anymore spelling errors.
:D

我应该多用华文来写博克。

I'm allowing you to hurt me,

letting you to ignore me like what you always does.

But I'll try to bear with it.

I swore that even you don't treat me as your girlfriend, I won't utter a word.

Because I love you, I don't want to lose you anymore.

19-11-09

2009-11-19T22:24:00.003+08:00

Shopping with AJ at bugis today (:
Pepperlunch for lunched.
& AJ bought a lot, and I brought 2 tops too.
Then went to library.
The sofa there are so comfortable, which nearly made me fall asleep.

I wonder why I felt so empty.

Life without you is incompleted.

How I wish time could rewind,

to the time when we just started.

Anticipating that you will turn back.

16-11-09

2009-11-16T11:18:00.000+08:00

21st month anniversary.

It should be an enjoyable day, yet I stay at home watch tv.
Lols.

Friday , 13-11-09.

Picnic at Marina Barrage with AJ, SC, JW. :D
Brought a lot of foods, but end up not enough.

9-11-09

2009-11-09T18:14:00.007+08:00

Heartbreaker.
Just let me go if you don't love me anymore.
I had enough of your torture.
You are treating me like a nobody.
It really hurts a lot

I just want you to care and treat me as your girlfriend.

Yet you say I am expecting too much.

I don't know why I am still holding on to this relationship.

I had dropped too much tears on you,

and I don't want to tears anymore.

Good Bye, E.

1-11-09

2009-11-01T11:30:00.002+08:00

Every Saturday, I had to go through 4 hours of tuition non-stop.
2 hours for english, 2 hours for amaths.
So tiring; killing all my brain cells.
But hope all my efforts will pay off.
Lols.
Why my english is so lousy.
I failed throughout the year.
WTF.

27-10-09

2009-10-27T20:15:00.003+08:00

Wonder why I am so weak uhh..
Just because got scolded by Mdm Kee, which was just a small matter.
& it totally affected my mood..
Hais. Why I was always get scolded by teachers??
Whats wrong with me??
Asshole

Pissed off & Moodless.

20-10-09

2009-10-20T15:58:00.007+08:00

17-10-09, Saturday.

Went out with AJ & SC.
Went to IMM just to have pepper lunch.
Lols!
But end up didnt eat it, because the service there totally suck!
Lunch at Ajisen instead.
Later on went to Town.
Watch movie again-500 days of Summer.
Not nice one, i was going fall alsleep in the cinema.
Actually planning of going Clark Quay to enjoy the scenery.
But end up didnt went there too. ):

19-10-09, Monday.

Outing with AJ, JW, SC, SR, HY! :D
Pepperlunch at AMK.
Watch movie again! - Imagine that.
I think I had lots of movie within this long break.
Lols!!

16-10-09

2009-10-16T11:08:00.006+08:00

The long & miserable 3 weeks EOY Exam finally ended yesterday.
Although I didn't study much, but it was still a tough period for me..
&& Hope I can score well uhh..

Yesterday, 15 Oct 2009.
Meet up with AJ, JW, Gina, Sharon & Debbie.
Headed to AMK to watch movie - Haeundae, The deadly tsunami.
WTH. The ending was so sad.. Tears just drop down so easily.
Lols.
Later then head to Fareast to shop.
Really wanted to buy some clothes, but nothing caught my eye. ):

After we seperated, AJ & Me went to Bugis to meet SC & SR!
Shopped again too.
Have our dinner and went home.

So tired..
Chatted with Elton awhile & sleep.

20th Month Anniversary!
Wth! Today is a special day, you went out with ur friends instead of me!
Zzzz. Lols.

Why life is full of obstacles??

Fuck life.

9-10-09

2009-10-09T19:26:00.001+08:00

Still 4 more exams days to go.
Hais..
Emaths paper 1 and Chemistry paper 2 sure failed badly alrd.
Damn it!

So many many things to memorise for geography and physics.
Asshole!

10-3-09

2009-10-03T09:57:00.001+08:00

2 more weeks to go.
Sian, I loathed exams.
&& I dun even feel like studying for it.
Hate to memorise so much stuff for social studies & geography.
):

BFF ♥

2009-09-22T19:33:00.005+08:00

My BFF!! ♥

Actually I should have another bff.
Maybe last time I was so tactless, always talk craps to him.
Regret of what I had done.

2009-09-10T18:23:00.006+08:00

8-9-09, Tuesday
Went out with AJ, JW, HY, Q anad J.
From Yishun to Hougang, then to Douby Gaut then to Bugis & to Sembawang & back at Yishun.
What a tiring day. My legs are aching.
Damn painful.

9-9-09, Wednesday.
"Pak Tor" with Elton at Marina Barrage.
Aya, so stupid la.
We reached there about 12pm, the hot was scorching. How to have picnic like that!
So we left there about 3pm.
Trained to CWP.
Ate imitated shark fins & chicken chop he treated me.
Later then, we wento to catch a movie, G-Force.
Lols, not really like it.
Home around 8pm.
Tired, but had alot of fun to have my day spend with him. (:

5-9-09

2009-09-05T15:29:00.003+08:00

How many more days till the day I can take my O levels?
I really want to graduate from this school faster.
No happy memories or wonderful moments that can make me cherish or think about.

I loathed being in this sucky school.
Seriously want to leave and have no ties with anyone in this school.

I just want a place that can find my true self, where I can enjoy being living in this world.